Zoe Theodora gracefully twirled her way right into her fourth year of life late last month.
This birthday came on the heels of Jack starting Kindergarten and Beau beginning to walk. The fact that she is is a little girl amongst her brothers makes the proverbial middle-child syndrome a little less prevalent than we might have seen otherwise.
I know I am biased, but this child is so special.
She is vibrant.
She is patient (most of the time).
She is smart.
She is nurturing.
She is fearless.
She is sassy.
She is tough.
She is girly.
She is curious.
She is silly.
She is a trooper.
She is beautiful.
She is simply exceptional.
Part of me was admittedly a little apprehensive about having a daughter. Would I be strong enough to raise a girl child? Will I teach her to be strong and confident when there is much of me that needs work in those areas?
I am trying to be a role model for her, but mostly I see that I am learning from her.
She teaches me to be a better person, just by being who she is. She doesn’t share too much about her feelings, but she is most certainly registering everything that happens around her. There are times when she’ll say things that remind me that she is taking it all in, during all of the craziness of our lives and hectic routine.
There has been a certain clarification of her personality in the last couple of months. She’s much more emotional and sensitive towards me… Something I’ve wondered whether it would ever happen. Her eyes well with tears the second something adverse comes out of my mouth, or worse, if she thinks I’m mad at her. I’m selfishly grateful that she is trying to connect with me.
Parenting is so tricky… Kids change on a dime.
This child is endlessly thrilled with sparkle and fancy, so when she woke up there was a gorgeous princess dress awaiting her on the first morning of her fourth year of life. Justin and I wanted this birthday celebration in Manhattan to be memorable and quintessential New York City, so we took her to the American Girl store and for a ride on the ferris wheel in the Toys R’ Us in Times Square.
As predicted, she was surprised and so excited to be at that store with wall-to-wall dolls, clothes and accessories. She’s still too young to really understand the hoopla over American Girl (though of course I remember them from my childhood and how I never had one!), but she knows baby doll heaven when she sees it. I completely love that she immediately chose the brown skinned Bitty Baby, and was absolutely adamant that she most certainly did not want to bring home any other doll. She wanted Isabel right from the start.
And of course, daddy had to dress Isabel in her party dress just like Zoe before we ever made it out of the store.
She is such a daddy’s girl. I hope she always recognizes how lucky she is to have him. I know I do.
After our city jaunt, she went off to school for a few hours. More celebration with momma’s homemade peach and brown sugar cupcakes!
The entire family was able to join her for her celebration with her pre-kindergarten class.
…And finally we went to dinner and made it home by dusk for cake and presents. Zoe twirled her beautiful self nearly all the way home.
We couldn’t arrange for the Empire State Building to be lit pink for her, but the heavens were painted pink and purple for a small window of time, precisely the duration of our walk home from our favorite Belgian restaurant.
It was an action-packed day full of glamour and magic, just as it should be. Four only happens once.
Happy birthday, my darling incredible daughter.













































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Aww…what a beautifully written post. Happy Birthday to Zoe!! Glad to hear that she enjoyed her special day. Moo has already her obsession with the American Girl dolls. She has picture of the doll she wants taped to the frig.
Thank you so much!! I thought we might have escaped the AG craze… But I’m happily living vicariously
This is the best post I have ever read! She is magical and thank you for sharing her special day with the rest of us. xo Simply beautiful!
So beautiful, Jessica – her, you, the post, everything.
This is quite possibly the most beautiful post I’ve read from you, Jess. It brought tears to my eyes, and I felt such a strong emotion pouring out of you while reading your words about your little beautiful girl. I loved this. I love you! You’re an amazing mommy. xoxoxo
so sweet. i’m misty.
THANKS FOR MAKING ME CRY BEFORE NOON!
I love her so much. And I love you so much.
And now I want to try for a girl GAAAAAH!
xoxo
Gorgeous girl, gorgeous family. Happy belated birthday! xo
LOVE her dress in the last pictures! Where is it from? Happiest of birthday wishes to one of your many blessings.
Gorgeous!! And still, the pics don’t even do the girl justice. so happy I got to see you all that special day.
xoxo
Congrats!
Beautiful girl, mom, family!
Have a wonderful 4th year!
Such a beautiful little princess.
I love four.
Beautiful post Jessica! Daughters are definitely something special
These kinds of posts inspire me to start a blog and get an iphone.
The iphone is coming (tomm!) but I need to add more hours to our 24 hour day.
The pictures are unreal (and tutus–are they handmade?)
Zoe is darling
xo,
Emily
What a wonderful way to celebrate. I know she felt special in her beautiful dress and with you all to celebrate with her!! She is so pretty and I know what you mean about having a daughter…
Happy Birthday to her!
p.s. My K just turned 3 on Monday, their birth dates must be close.
Beautiful. Just like you two ladies.
Your descriptions make me think of my own girl among boys. We sure are lucky, aren’t we?
Oh, and that picture with the carousel horse? The best yet!
One day Zoe will see this is one of the greatest birthday gifts she could ever received from you, her beloved mother.
I gotta go now…something’s in my eye BIGTIME!
Happy birthday to your beautiful amazing girl.
Happy birthday to your little girl! Mine is turning 4 as well in a couple of months and from your account of your daughter I think they would have made great friends if we lived close!
Happy Birthday, Zoe. What a beautiful post for a beautiful girl (and family!). Truly blessed, Jessica. Enjoy her!
I die. Seriously, I die from the beauty and love oozing out of the pictures. I could just stare at her. Happy birthday darling!
Thank you for sharing and inspiring me to love just a little bit more.
Happy birthday to Zoe! Stunning post. Just perfect.
i absolutely love how the pictures match up with her beautiful qualities. and what a memorable birthday– 4 in nyc! those twirl pictures, i can feel the magic from them. i love how you love each of your kiddos so well. xo
The most wonderful declaration of love from a mother to a daughter!
Jess, you have an amazing gift in photography. These photos are beautiful. And, as I anticipate my own daughter’s 4th birthday in just two short months, I’m tearing up with the tenderness!! I hope they’ll meet someday
(I also hope WE’LL meet someday!)
Happy Birthday to Zoe! What a special day for her and the entire family. The photographs really capture the feelings of the day—beautiful.
She is your twin! Very sweet article. I’m inspired and touched
Oh, Happy Birthday beautiful girl and congrats Jess, she is exquisite.
Why why why am I getting all choked up?
She is magical. xoxo
What a beautiful tribute! I enjoy reading your posts because they so eloquently express some universal truths. Thanks for sharing!
Love that “Zoesee”! This definitely made me cry happy mommy tears. The pictures so totally capture her and I enjoyed reading about your evolving relationship. You are a wonderful mother. xoxo
I can only pray if ever I have a little girl that we have the kind of relationship you seem to have with yours. She is a happy and special girl because of you and the Mr. so GOOD JOB to you both. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET GIRL
What a beautiful post, I loved reading it! Your daughter is vibrant just like mine, loves twirling in those poofy dresses all day (where did you get the one for your daughter?) Girls are so much fun, cherish her and enjoy every minute together!