It always sort of strikes me when a new year begins, that before me stands a clean slate full of unwritten days; Moments to be had, memories to me made, even mistakes to be learned from. It’s no different than any other day with tomorrow starting anew and the days that come afterwards, but the hope that comes with a new number and a new set of dates is promising in some way.
We have been home bound for a while now. The cold winter wind makes it hard to be outdoors with the kids, even if it means going to the grocery store or pediatrician, so we’ve mostly stayed tucked away in our cozy apartment for what feels like weeks on end. Two sets of ear infections and the holiday break contributed to our lock-in, but we decided yesterday that it was time to get out and do something-it was New Years Eve after all and sitter or not, my sanity was frayed.
I have been hearing about and seeing photos from the Ann Hamilton event of a thread exhibit at the Park Avenue Armory for a couple of weeks and it had quickly made it’s way to the top of my must-see list for this winter. We bundled the kids and headed uptown to see for ourselves. I’ve never been to a moving art installation before, so I wasn’t entirely sure what to expect.
It was all could do to keep up with the kids, watching their reactions and excitement and be able to absorb all that was happening with them, even through them.
The silk curtain was moving with the swinging of the audience on the adult sized, yet childhood inspired wooden swings. My children thought it was absolutely awesome, and kept asking questions about how it was built, who “Ann” is, and whether she used a “super tall ladder” to put up the curtain.
It was a truly visceral experience, and so poignant to me as the year was coming to an end that I was standing in a beautiful, tangible demonstration of how we are all connected and progress with each other in this life. We all perceive art in different ways, and for me it was the perfect way to wrap up this year mentally and emotionally. I am also perhaps slightly desperate for an elevated level of consciousness given my 5-and-under counterparts 24/7, but even seeing everything intertwined and moving through their eyes was spectacular.
These men were reading the works of Darwin and Aristotle, and it was being transmitted to radios in the paper bags. In the end of the day, the doves in the cages are released, and they fly to other cages in the West Wing of the Armory.
We stayed for about an hour while Beau slept and Justin studied, and afterwards walked to Rockefeller Center to have dinner and celebrate the end of 2012 and 2013.
I thought it would take us so much longer to get to 2013. It’s a big year for my family, one that I frankly couldn’t pretend to foresee-I’ve never been good at foresight in any respect. I’ve somehow made it to 33 years of age by living each day as it comes and just trying to make the best of it. 2013 is the year that Justin will graduate from Dental School and we will uproot our family again and move back to whence we came in the Bay Area. It still feels like we just got to NYC and he just began his classes as a first year dental student.
2012 was the year Jack began kindergarten-a monumental stage in his childhood and my own motherhood, Zoe started her last year of preschool, and Beau’s first full 12 months of life has been such an incredible journey already. He possesses his brother’s patience, his sister’s determination, and has introduced such an incredible (and impressive) amount of energy that this family was totally unprepared for, yet completely in need of.
Between the birth of my third child, I defeated my anxieties and spoke on a panel at my first big conference flanked by women that I love and respect, and we weathered our first (and hopefully last) major disaster as a family. This year has taught me lessons in gratitude, strength, and confidence that I am appreciative for, but I am ready to take those lessons and hopefully have a smooth transition into our new life in California this summer.
May 2013 bring you and your families love, prosperity and happiness all around! Thank you for being on this adventure of mine. I am forever grateful for you.